Am i born into this world to function as a robot?

Holla people!It's already 1.23am and i'm still awake when tmrw i have to report to school by 9am.As i'm typing,my mom is trying to gain my attention but i'm good at ignoring people.

School as usual has been triring on top of that I have drama trainings and I was sick during the last few weeks and until now my immune system is kinda weak.I just read both Mai and Seri's blog and i feel so envious of them!Mai watched bride and prejudice a show I had never watch before.And you know Seri loves blogging or uploading all those funky happy music vids which i always give a skip because I'm fighting against time.

Just now drama was pretty ok and it ended earlier which was a relief to me.But my fucking bitch teacher just have to attack me about my so called poor attendance.Like fuck u bitch I have not been coming for drama that's because i was really sick.Isn't my health is suppose to be more important than your stupid goal of getting Gold for SYF?Like seriously so i'm suppose to work like a robot for you bitches and glorify the school's name at the expense of my own interest?Go To Hell!You are so lucky that I really love the spotlights or else I would have been MIA for a long time.And anyway bitch if u have a problem with me go and try to find my replacement.The question is will u get a replacement who is better than me?Not trying to boast here but there's a reason why my drama instructor refused to kick me out from the SYF team.

The only thing i'm looking forward to for tmrw is when it is 12pm.At 12.30pm I will meet Isma then we will meet the rest at RP to study!Studying with friends is really productive since we will help out each other.And when i look at my friends i'm really thankful that I have gotten these people as my friends since we share the same frequency and humour level.

Oh anyway, the J1s are already here and none of them let me stress on the word NONE,looks like my handsome boy.Seriously he's one of the best memories Innova has given me.With effect from next week,every monday i will have lessons from 8am to 12.45pm without break.I'm gonna be mind fucked man every monday.Well at least till end of this year, I am a robot expected to produce impressive results.
MFDJ

True love awaits

Hey people happy Sunday morning!Isn't it fast that January is already going to bid us farewell and we will be welcoming february soon?School has been tiring as usual on friday i had drama from 2.30pm-6.45pm. How about that?And i only left school at 9 Tmrw MOE is ging to release the JAE results so gd luck to IS!And the following day which is a tuesday where my JC is going to be flooded with JC1s.Like borinnnggg! Now i know how my seniors felt when they were going to receive us. Anyway today i wanted to blog about something that happened during drama.

My drama club is doing Hamlet for SYF so Hamlet has a girlfriend, Ophelia.My friend is acting as Ophelia and there are several scenes where Hamlet and Ophelia will be lovey-dovey with each other.So my friend has to act out all these lovey-dovey stuff and she's unsure how to do it because she dosent have a boyfriend.When my instructor gets to know this he wore this shock face and disbelief.He was like "how old are u and u don't have a boyfriend?" So he started teasing my friend by calling her Nun.

And later on another of my friend was required to act out lovey-dovey stuff again and my friend told him "I'm sorry i'm inexperience in all these stuff.I don't have a boyfriend" And this time round he asked "Ok seriously how many of u in this room has a boyfriend?" And no one raised our hand.He continued to wear that shock face and he was telling us how by our age he already had a girlfriend and he 8 exs before settling down.

So i was wondering is it really necessary to have a boyfriend just because we are 18?What's the use of rushing to have one and it only gives you a heartbreak?Have it ever occured to you that the only reason why till now no guys notice you is because you are meant to be noticed by your Mr Right?You guys should listen to the song All about us by He is we ft Owl city.This is a snippet of the lyrics.

Take my hand, I'll teach you dance

I'll spin you around, won't let you fall down

Would you let me lead, you can step on my feet

Give it a try, it'll be alright.


The room's hush, hush

And now's our moment

Take it feel it all and hold it

Eyes on you, eyes on me

We're doing this right.


Cause lovers dance, when they're feeling in love

Spotlight shining, its all about us

It's oh, oh, oh, oh, all about uh, uh, uh, us.

And every heart in the room will melt,

You should watch the music video as well it's very sweet about how the girlfriend contracted cancer and the boyfriend still stood by her side.So girls no worries if you don't have a boyfriend because when that moment comes it is suppose to be perfect.And i think i have said this before I'm glad i don't have a boyfriend because i seriously do not need distraction.So Men stay out.But only for the time being do come into my life when i'm 19.Hahahaha!
MFDJ

I guess it's too boring

Hey guys!Finally i get the time to blog.I'm sure u guys will notice that I hardly blog nowadays bcoz yes i'm busy and i have to fight with time.School is demanding too much of my time and now my drama has been scheduled twice a week and there will be times where drama is thrice a week.How tiring can that be?And i have yet to really memorise my script and analyse my character and get into my role.Apart from being busy, my life is so boring that i have no idea whta to blog about.U can say maybe i'm loss for words?There have been ocassions where i will open my blog and would want to blog but then i can't help just to stare at my blog with an empty head and no ideas gushing in my mind to blog about.Why do i say my life is boring?Well what do you expect out of life that demands you to wake up at 5am and then u will reach school by 7.30am and then you will leave school sometimes as late as 9pm?By the time i reach home will be close to 10.30pm and i will watch this hindi drama, Hitler Didi.



This drama is really good it's about a woman, Indira who is the soulbread winner of her family and she has been running the household ever since she was 17 years old.She has an elder brother who is a loafer and a mother who would not want her to get married though she is already 25 because her mom fears that if she gets married who is going to take care of the family.Then she has this tenant who is actually the hero of the drama.Well no hindi dramas are considered real hindi dramas if they are missing the love story.Only this guys can see the real value of Indira and wishes to befriend her.

So after watching this drama i will prepare to sleep or do a little bit more of work before heading for bed latest 12.30am.And i try my very best to watch only 30min of tv from monday-thursday then friday i will watch 2hr 30 min of tv due to Vettai which is showing at Vasantham.This is another superb drama!So isn't my life boring?I don't really talk to my family or rather i do not have that leisure to spend time with them because there are so many things that demand my attention.I don't get to talk to Seri during weekdays anymore.I can only talk to her during weekends usually when we meet for our morning jog.And i promised IS to give her a call during CNY holidays but I have not call her yet till now because ya u get it right i'm busy.

Well it's already 8.07pm and i'm supposed to read my history at 8pm.Just to update u guys right now for history i'm learning about the economy in Southeast Asia during the period of 1940s-1990s.It's kind of interesting i have to say because you will learn that what kind of government system you have will have a direct impact on your economy.For an example a democratic government will definitely adopt an open market economy.Then the next question you will have to ask is did the government achieve Economic growth,Economic equity and Economic nationalism?I shall stop here because i have a feeling you guys are getting bored with my post.
MFDJ

Bid farewell to the good time

Tmrw,practically in few hours I will be awake at 5.20am hopefully and by 6.10am i will be out of my house making my way to school.Oh well there goes my holidays and freedom.But i have already planned out well how to spend the last bits of my hols.So since friday till sunday i have been just slacking.Did a little bit reading for history and put my books away until now.Of course i feel gulity.My conscience has been nagging at me asking how can i be so irresponsible and carefree considering my homecoming exams are coming like next week.But seriously who wanna face the books and notes when tmrw u start school.U must end ur holidays with a bang.And i promise when tmrw comes i will be dating my books again.Like i said in the previous post it's a crucial year for me every moment counts.A level is not like O level where i can prepare few months before and still do well enough to go to a JC.Try doing that for A level and you will cry your heart out.Trust me i have already broken down before for my midcourse and there's no doubt i will break down again when the stress is too much for me to handle.But i'm not a weakling i will sail through this journey smoothly.This is expected for me because after JC my only option is University and i have to go to a local one.Overseas university is way out of our budget.Anyway borrowed Comanche Magic by Catherine Anderson!Yet to start serious reading on it!Hopefully can finish it quickly and pass it to Seri and Maisarah!Well that's all from me now till we meet again!
MFDJ

Curtains up, lights on, ACTION!

IT'S 2012!!!WOHOOOOOoooooo!!!!......Wondering why the expression 'wohooo' was initially capitalised then not?Well i was actually trying to pretend that I'm so happy that it is the new year but then i guess i may be an actress but i'm not a hypocrite.I mean seriously what is so exciting about new year that people goes crazy about it?

But i have to say this year is my first time on New year's eve that i went out with my friends and it will always be remembered, close to my heart.What are the plans i have for this year?It's going to be a rollercoaster ride except that i will not enjoy this rollercoaster ride bcoz it's not going to be fun.Yes i see a little confusion there like how can rollercoaster rides not be fun?EVERYONE LOVES AND ENJOYS IT!Oh exception we have seri who is scared of rollercoaster ride!Hahaha i'm such a bitch and I love it!

But my rollercoaster ride is not gonna be fun.I guess all the excitement will comes in 2013!Yes that's right i don't believe in the Mayans prediction.So this year i will still go to school taking 168, not that i love the bus rides so much that i wouldn't consider other transportations.The bus rides now are going to be different since IS will no longer be there for me.MUNDANE bus rides without all the gigglings and jesting.

I'm going to sit for my A-level next year which means is either i break it or bang it!I'm gonna bang it hard!I have to do well for A-level bcoz there is no way at the very cost of my life i'm gonna have 3 years of JC education instead of the norm.I am just looking forward to the new addition of the family and the holiday trips that i'm gonna enjoy at the end of the year!Before 2011 ended i managed to spend it with my beloved friends such as Ru Ai, Xin Hui, Xue Yi, Maisarah,Is and Seri.Thanks guys for the beautiful memories!5 years of friendship and we shall go strong till death do us apart.









I can't wait for that special moment to arrive when i will be able to go on a vacation with my friends and we will rock the show and do stupid things and it will be something that remains as a secret amongst us!

On fb just now i saw someone changed its marital status and i was surprised because never thought that so fast someone will be in a relationship.Felt a bit tiny weeny of jealousy in my heart.Then i told myself Allah has greater plans for me and he knows that relationship is the least priority.



I have to do my responsibilities as a daughter which is to let my parents keep their heads high and keep their chins up.Anyway i have yet to do hanky spanky stuff with my dream guys before i'm tied down.Like i ever said the world is a stage and i wonder what other dramas will unfold.It's funny how i'm the actor yet i have no idea of the storyline.
MFDJ

A rollercoaster journey i would say

Hey guys as promised I'm gonna share a little about my Indonesia trip.So I went to two parts of Indonesia which is Solo and Jogjakarta for 11 days.Solo is a quiet and peaceful town as compared to Jogjakarta which is so bustling.In solo I went to a school that is equivalent to our Nafa/laselle their school of Arts which is called SMK8.SMK8 stands for Sekolah Menengah Kejuruan 8. I really had great fun over there and this is my most favourite part of the trip.We were exposed to Javanese culture and my group was lucky enough to be chosen to do the Javanese traditional dance.








Besides that, we get to watch wayang orang which unfortunately was in Javanese language hence,it was acceptable for me to doze off during the performance!Heheheh!We also get to go to the paddy field and I sat on a bull and ploughed the field!





Some may be thinking why did i say rollercoaster journey.Well who would ever thought that for the whole 11 days almost every single day I was sick, having diarhoea,food poisoning and severe immense menstrual cramp.It was such a torture and the food isnt really fantastic as well.I guess it just didnt suit my tastebud.Unexpectedly, i lost weight when i came back to Indonesia.I was comparing my experience in Indonesia and India and i guess I'm a true indian!In india i didnt experience at all diarhoea and I love the food there because it is so delicious that I actually put on weight when I came back.I would love to go back to India but for Indonesia maybe few years down the road?
MFDJ

Bloody Fucking Pissed Off

I'm so bloody fucking piss rite now!Seriously i need to rant so that i can vent my anger out!U know what i feel like telling you?I feel like telling you fuck u bitch!Without me realising, i called u bitch right in your face.It is your bloody life rite so settle it!Sometimes i seriously dislike you so much!Face the truth you coward!Arrrgghhh!!!!
MFDJ